Month: April 2015

Just a weird day.

Yesterday was a rough day, and if you asked me what was wrong, I wouldn’t even be able to tell you.I tried figuring it out, but I couldn’t get any solid reasoning.It was just a weird day. These happen occasionally, and usually when they do I find myself wanting to be around nobody. Not because…

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Hindsight.

I found myself in the spiraling vortex that is going through old blog posts. It’s funny to look back on the beginning and remember how I felt when all of it happened, but also to have the insight of now. The reality. The full picture I couldn’t see while going through it. I take these…

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Wizard of Oz

I’m just now realizing that I haven’t written about this weekends shows at all. So much has happened and there is much to say, but I fear I won’t have the words to get out all I want to. Saturday started in a bit of a tizzy. One of the hardest working dancers in the…

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Triggers.

“Stop whining.” If you want to know the fastest way to break my spirit, get me to shut up, and subsequently not speak but rather hide inside myself for days all it takes is those two little words. We got to work on our recital piece in the class today, even though we typically only…

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Understudy.

When I did theater in High School, I tended to get understudy roles.Such is the curse of responsible students, and ones who won’t complain until you give them a part.(and it probably didn’t help that I was insecure and didn’t speak up. How times have changed.) Point is, I learned so many valuable lessons being…

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progress

It feels really good when you’re in a class with dancers more advanced than you and you are able to keep up.Usually I struggle.Usually I get the concept, but not the full combination.Usually I mess up direction or can’t even attempt the arms. And, sure, there were a few times I messed up the arms…

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Why do you dance?

There’s this ongoing inner “struggle” of sorts over the gap between my skill level and my age. For the most part, everything is okay.But there are times when I just wish that I was better. That I had began earlier. That I could have been dancing all these years instead of just the past 3.5ish.It…

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