Category: dance

Recital 2018

I taught four ballet classes this year. I taught ages spanning from 3-9, and it was my first year teaching over the age of 6. This brings in a bit of depth in their training you don’t necessarily see with the younger ones. I wasn’t quite sure what to expect, but now that the year…

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I’m still here.

“I miss the joy of dancing.” Reading those words on a notecard attached to pointe shoes was the moment the documentary “Unrest” had me crying. Weeping. Even now, I’m held up in bed, not allowing myself to do anything today besides recital this evening because I have done too much this week and next week…

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Changes.

I’ve been sitting on this post for a while, knowing it was one I would have to write but having no clue how I would actually do it. It feels like such a big and heavy thing, but also nonchalant. Do I really need to write about it? Does this really matter in the grand scheme…

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Giselle.

As I sit on my bed, Giselle now behind me and the post-show-blues clearly evident, I figured now is as good a time as any to post a show recap. Buckle in, kids, this one is going to be all over the place. This was my first spring show not being able to dance in…

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Beautiful Grief.

Grief is a powerful, confusing, painful emotion to have to endure. Unrelenting, it shows up uninvited at the most inopportune times possible, leaving the bearer to have to figure out how to navigate around it. It doesn’t care if it’s show week, you’re out of understudies, surrounded by scores of well-intending people. It will hit…

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Together.

It was recently the birthday of a friend of mine I met when I first began dancing. I text her birthday wishes after going through my TimeHop app and seeing all the many birthday greetings throughout the 7 years (woah) that I’ve known her. I told her I was glad she was born, she replied…

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One year.

One year. That’s how long it’s been since my feet have danced in pointe shoes. One year since the last performance of our spring show of 2017. Deep down, I was aware that it would be my last. That I would have to dial back and slow it down. I knew I wouldn’t be in…

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It’s the final countdown.

We have two weekends of rehearsals left before “Selena Week” when we rehearse at the theater. It’s exciting to see Act I come together like it has, and I’m anxious to get to see Act II. I wanted to sneak in to a rehearsal, but they happen while I’m teaching on Saturdays so I haven’t…

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Giselle rehearsals.

We’re in the last month of rehearsals before Giselle in April here at my home studio. I knew it would be different not being as involved as usual, but I don’t know that you can really prepare yourself for all the emotions that come with it. Some days I just want to dance. The fact…

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What a week.

This has been a really difficult week, to say the least. Those little things that cut you down and get under your skin seemed to come from every direction and pile up all at once. To say I’m grateful for ballet and what it has given me in this life would be an understatement. I…

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