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I just posted a super difficult blog post that I’ve been trying to write for a few months. I also thought about waiting until the summer to post it, but feel that now is the best time. The details are there, but essentially this is my last year teaching. I also won’t be active on this account anymore. It’ll remain live, as will my blog, but I won’t be checking in on it. This has been an extremely difficult decision to have to come to, but it’s one I can’t avoid anymore. If you’d like to keep up with me, please feel free to follow my personal account @emileeayers or my poetry account @forthestranger (or my “nerd” account if you’re into that, @thenerdjacket ) I love y’all so much and am super grateful for the friends I’ve made over the years through ballet. Super proud of y’all and everything you’re accomplishing every day. (Thanks to Mrs Gigi for this picture from nutcracker this year. It’s super special to me.)
I’ll have a proper post after the trip when I can blog. I’m the meantime, please enjoy this photo of @ballerinakay that I am properly obsessed with. ❤️
Two years ago today, I met @allie_on_pointe in person! In NINE DAYS we’re going to London together! I truly cherish the friends being in the dance world as an adult has given me. ❤️
Caught the train, heading back to hogwarts. See you witches (and wizards) there!
The dance season started up this week! My classes started today, and I wrote a blog post about it. Now I’m gonna go sleep. Link in bio
I was at a Harry Potter convention this weekend with my best friend and had an unexpected ballet encounter. I wrote about it if that’s your sort of thing. Link in the bio. 💛🖤

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Find your center.

Use your center.

If I had a dollar for every time my dance teacher said this, I’d be a millionaire.
Your center-your core- is one of the most important things to engage in dance. If you don’t have your center,  if you can’t find it, if you don’t use it, you’re not going to look very graceful. If you can even make it through the combination.
I’ve been having a hard time recently. An identity crisis, of sorts. 
I didn’t feel like I know who I really was. I knew me, but I felt like the core of me had disappeared. 
One of my closest friends, Kristin, and I went to go see our traditional movie around Christmas. This year we went to see Rise of the Guardians.  
Oh. My. Gosh.
So good. 
It was actually her second time seeing it, and I can see why.
It has such a wonderful message behind it, and it played right to my heart.
What’s your point? What are you here for? What makes you tick? 
If you can find that, then you’re set.
I went to my parents church last Wednesday.
Wouldn’t you know it, they went on a “Jesus is at the center of it all” tangent. 
And it made perfect sense. 
He should be my center. He should be what defines me, what keeps me going.
I realized why it is that so many people feel they have a say in my life and decisions.
Because I let them.
I’ve been so concerned with not offending anyone that I had lost who I am.
I would tweak things about myself to better mesh with them and their personalities and lifestyles.
Nothing too drastic or life altering, per se. I didn’t do drugs or sleep around or anything like that, but it affected me nonetheless.
I need to find my center. What makes me tick. What makes me who I am.
No one can define it for me, and if I rely on that I am setting myself up for failure.
I can hold people and things close, but I have to remember that it is indeed all temporary. 
And if I was to lose everything I know and love, I can’t let it break me down.
Sure, it would hurt and it would be an adjustment. But I can’t let it break me.
This dance we call life. It’ll look a whole lot better if we find our center and engage it. 
Life makes so much more sense and is more enjoyable now.
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