Ms. Lori choreographed a dance for the girls who are at festival, so I didn’t expect her to be in class yesterday since the girls left Wednesday. But she stayed behind and took off today instead, thus being in class to teach us.
It was so great having her, especially with the recital piece and more especially since we were off for Spring Break last week.
She has this way of encouraging while she teaches. She tells you what you need to hear (she’s the only one besides the director and Ms Munro [of course] to flat out tell the girls to get into character and why it’s important with Winkie Guards.
And she called me out and flat out told them to watch me and do what I do and I was embarrassed and proud at the same time it was wonderful.) but does so in a way that makes you want to try harder. You don’t feel like you’re being cut down, you feel enabled.
She’s been really working us with the details lately, which I absolutely love. So often they fall through the cracks of assumption and it can cause you to look sort of choppy and edgy rather than smooth and crisp like you need to, all because you just don’t realize it what you’re doing isn’t quite up to par.
Yesterday, she made a comment when we were doing a combination that involved going up into passe. She wanted us to get there quickly, and not drag it on. We were coming to passe after doing a pirouette at the barre. So, pirouette, hold it, then go to front attitude. But often we were finding ourselves struggling to hold everything together after the pirouette, thus making it difficult to get into the attitude.
She said, “You have to pull it together.Hold it together, even if you’re struggling to get around, do what you can to engage your core and hold it all together so you can get there.” (paraphrased, but you get the point.)
Instantly my mind thought how relevant this is.
Not to say that you have to bottle up your emotions and never let them out or ignore any bit of emotion, not that at all.
Rather, that when life is crashing around you, when everything gets all wobbly and loose, when things aren’t clear, hold it together; keep your composure, keep a level head. Don’t let yourself freak out and throw everything away just because life threw you a curveball. Because really, the curveballs make us who we are. They test us and show us our limits and teach us new things about ourselves and the world around us. You just have to figure out how to not let yourself give up completely and throw in the towel. You have to remind yourself that you can do this and hold it together until it’s proven.
Pull it together. Hold it together. Even if you’re struggling.
Started ballet late October of 2011 at the age of 23.
Began pointe training late August of 2013.